Took my 2nd solo “vacation”, again looking for clarity and failed.
My 1st solo trip was October 2019 to Iceland looking for “clarity” and “what’s next”. I rented a car and took day trips all over the west side of the island. I visited a “touristy thing” (Blue Lagoon) but mainly just drove, stopping here and there to look at the light house, walk the beach, or grab food. I was reminded of how much I love road trips and how comfortable I am traveling alone. I was also reminded that having no expectations other than a having a good time is rejuvenating.
Due to Covid my “original” 2nd solo trip had to be postponed (was to be to Toronto CA July 2020). While Covid is still challenging the world, some restrictions have been lifted enough for me to feel comfortable traveling. Also, I knew how to follow social distancing guidelines BEFORE they were guidelines (introvert). So I asked around and found a co-worker who knew someone who rented a condo down near the gulf and reserved it for 2nd week of February. My original intentions were to take my pups but I opted to hire a dog sitter (condo has some intense stairs for carrying things and attempting to not lose balance). While many of the beaches and condos near the beaches are not dog friendly, there are places local that will allow you to bring pets. I am grateful that more places is becoming more pet friendly because ultimately I would like to take my pups with me so that i can vacation longer.
Anyhow, the week in Orange Beach Alabama area turned out to be one the coldest weeks they had seen in YEARS. Thankfully this did not keep me from most of my goals for the trip (which was to detox from social media, each my body weight in seafood, and walk the beach). I had hoped to gain more “clarity” of what it is that I want for my life, what direction I would like to go, but I still feel stumped. While I do love my home, love my job (mainly the people I work with), found a reliable dog sitter, and am still close enough to loved ones for quick trips to see them; I constantly feel like there has to be more for me/my life then what is offered within 50 miles of where I currently live.
I’ve listened to some fabulous “self improvement” podcasts this last year and many of have suggested a change of scenery does a solo person good. I was already on the fence on whether or not this area is where “Mr. Like Minded Compatible Looking to Cohabitate with Me” lives when I heard the suggestion. Couple that with desire to increase my high three for retirement. This is a wonderful area for families but not so much solo folks or for upward mobility in current position. I wonder if it’s time to move and to where.
With Covid and it’s restrictions I have been able to focus 100% on me, releasing habits that were no longer serving me and implementing some that do support the life I want to lead. But I still struggle with decisiveness. And supposedly before the universe can give you what you desire, you have to tell it what you want and believe that you will get it. The only thing I know for certain is that I want to be happy, healthy, active and to have MY meant for me companion. Could be why many of the jobs I have applied for in other areas have not panned out (Two may have been a Godwinks that I didn’t get the jobs).
I’ve pulled out my white board and started lists of desires for Location, Job, and Companion….Any tricks on being more clear and decisive?